Tuesday, January 3, 2012

accountable

Wow where do I start....I've always wanted to start a blog so why not...its a new year! I'm nothing special..just an ordinary 25 year old who loves her husband and son. I have a job I enjoy...a house that is home...to most I have a pretty normal life but what's missing?? Oh yeah...the after picture (the name of my blog) yes this will be my weight loss blog. ..I know what you're thinking because im thinking it too! yes I have become that girl....I am hoping this will hold me accountable and heck when I wanna eat I guess I will just blog instead! My journey...I've always been pretty average...not fit & skinny by any means but not obese. It didn't really hit me until two months before my wedding I tried my dress on again...."what do you mean it won't zip??" How do you not fit into a dress you bought months before? Oh I guess by eating whatever and not working out! After the devastation wore off...extreme dieting ....I think back now and have no idea how I did it but I was in college and worked 8ish hours a week so I guess I had alot of free time! My sister who was also in college at the time was my lifesavor BC I made her workout with me! I would run in the mornings...walk to the tanning salon...go to class..then workout again. Oh I forgot to mention I was also doing the carb diet...it was the worst thing ever!! Every time I wanted to cheat I thought of me walking down the aisle...def a motivation! Long story short I realized sugar alcohols do not sit good with me if you know what I mean and the dress was even a little big! Fast forward to newlywed...you have to cook for your husband right?? Being 19 years old I didn't have the most experience there. That led to many unhealthy meals and fast food and before I knew it all my hard work meant nothing and I think I was bigger than before the dress didn't fit! I worked out on occasion...went up and down a few pounds here and there. Fast forward to a positive test...we were pregnant!! I was soooo excited! I actually only gained 20ish pounds but seemed like so much more BC I was too heavy to begin with! Had a handsome healthy boy...Hudson...my reason for everything! When he was about nine months old we started biggest loser at my job...yes! Just what I needed to get motivated again! I started doing kickboxing and ate very very healthy! The weight came off every weigh in.. guess what...yes I won! I lost 27 lbs in 12 Weeks... I felt great! I was wearing a size medium and 7/8 size pants..I couldn't remember ever being in single digits. Can you guess what happens next? Yes...I gained it all back....even after I swore to myself I wouldn't! I realized that I am a very competitive person and when I want to or have to lose weight I can but if I don't have motivating factor (wedding....money) I gain it all back! I have no excuses. Its actually embarrassing admitting that...but back to the purpose of this....accountability! So now that I realized yet again that I need to change...I'm ready! I start Kosama (a 8 week program) next Monday...I am also going to give up pop and fast food for the eight Weeks...boy am I gonna be crabby! My poor hubby!! So what's gonna be different this time? This blog will keep me accountable to keep the weight off..and of course....because I want an after picture!